Heart attack

It was a heart attack for me and my family yesterday. The sarong in my inlaw's place suddenly break off!! My precious Princeton landed on the floor! He screamed immediately. I was having dinner wif my FIL in the kitchen, den suddenly my MIL came over and told me the sarong hook break. I thought she was joking, coz she was laughing away!! WTF! How could the hook just break!! I rushed to the rm in one sec! My maid was carrying Princeton, and my poor boy was crying non stop.There was a BIG BIG bump behind his head, it was red and very swollen.

I was lost, and i cried too. I faster called zhenyu & sis and told them wat happen, and asked hubby to dash over immediately! He was actually having OT last evening. While waiting for him to come over, i was feeling very nervous, coz Princeton was still screaming in pain. I asked my in laws for the zambuk cream, but they dont have it!!!!!!! The whole house dont even have zambuk for my baby????! I was very angry, and ask them who can we borrow from??? Any neighbours have it ornot?? Then we went downstairs to borrow. I ran down and took from the neighbour. Applied the cream and massage gently behind baby's head. He scream even loudly... I cant let him cry for so long, so i made some milk and let him drink.

My FIL kept saying its ok one, jus a fall ONLY. My MIL still laughing away, thinking its very funny. F**K man, i am really angry, and she can still laugh. Told me go to the clinic can already. I think she must be mad, mentally mad. Of course i have to bring Princeton to the hospital now! wat clinic??! Clinic have the scanning xray to do is it??! I dont feel like talking to them, jus waiting for zhenyu to come. Tat moment in time, one min passes like an hour. Zhenyu finally arrived, and we dashed to KK.

The emergency was full of ppl.. everyone was like carrying their children, either fever or injured. The faces of the parents was as anxious as me. Luckily, Princeton stopped crying, and he can smile to us when we sing him songs. Waited for about 3 hrs, the x ray was done, and doc told us there was no visible fracture from the xray. Told us to observe baby for 3days, see if there are any bleeding from the ears or nose. I called my manager and my officer, request to take urgent leave the next day. I will not bring him over to my inlaws place again. I'm not being unreasonable, and i aso understand tat it wasn't their fault, and no one wished this to happen. But how are they going to assure me again? How am i going to rest assure tat my boy will be in good hands over there???

They din even come along to the hospital together, and the feeling tat they gave me was tat, it was a small matter. My sis and bro in law came over right after their work. This is wat i call family.

I thank GOD Princeton was ok, and pray tat he will recover fast. I feel so lousy, cant even protect my son. As parents, we must protect our child from all the bad things. There are no such things as OVER protected. My Princeton is barely 4months old, wat do u mean by over protected??? In future, anything i say will be final, and when i say no, it only means NO.

HURT VERY HURT

Today is sunday, as usual i slept til one pm... Zhenyu having duty today, when i woke up, very hungry so i asked amie to cook me some pasta. Princeton is playing happily by himself in the baby cot. I kissed his cheeks and he giggled.. when i walked away to my room, he began to make noise, i can sense tat he was saying, mummi please dun go away, play wif mi pls. I went back to him again and smile at him. When he saw mi, he smiled. Princeton is going to be 4months next wk, im so happi! Kept thinking the day when he can walk... I went back to have a nap again at 3pm.. cant sleep well, having nightmares. woke up at 6 and had a bath. After tat, went to buy dinner for amie. Den i went jurong point for pedicure. On the way back while waiting for bus, zhenyu called mi. We chat about the plan tmr. Coz tmr we're going to bring maid and princeton over to my inlaw's place. As both of us will be working tmr, nobody is at hm to oversee the maid. So my FIL took leave to look after them. I told zhenyu tat, pls remind father dont bring princeton out, let him stay at hm. Coz we are not around, i will be worried. Not tat i dont trust my FIL, but as a mother, of course i will be worried when my son is outside, and im not by his side.

I told zy how i feel, saying tat princeton is my son, and i gave birth to him, of course i'll be anxious and worried. Do u know wat zhenyu replied mi?? "Ni hai bu shi kai dao ge chu lai de?" (u aso cut and took the baby out) When i hear this, my eyes gets watery, and less than 3sec, tears flow down like waterfall. I tired to control, but i cant.. my heart hurts, as though a knife pierced my heart into half. i hung down the phone without saying anytin. I shut off the phone too.. Never did i think he would say tis kind of thing to mi. He msg, saying tat he was sori, and he was oni joking.

Do u think this kind of sentence u can joke about? Yes i know i am useless, i did not give birth naturally. I know i'm useless, i cant take the pain. I am guilty for tat, and esp i did not breastfeed princeton... as my wound pain is unbearable, and the contraction gets worse when i tried to breastfeed. So i really hope i can give my boy the best in other things... During my pregnancy, i suffered alot, vomit b4 n after every meal. After operation, though my confinement was well done, n i feel much healthy now, but there are cons on the other side. People wondering y i dont always carry my son? U really think i dont wish to cuddle him? My back began to ache every nite. Whenever i bend down, it hurts. When i carry princeton, my back hurts even more, esp he is putting on weight now. At nite, i cant sleep well, coz i am suffering from backache already. The worst thing is, my hair drop alot alot.. i think im going to turn bold soon.

As my husband, instead of loving me more, he said this kind of comment to his wife. No matter how many sorry he can say, my hurt can never go away. I am terribly upset now, still wondering how could he say such thing to me?? U mean all these while, u had been thinking tat ur wife is not as Wei Da as those who can give birth naturally rite?

Mayb one day i will forgive, but i will never forget.