Grief stricken days

Those who are closer to me should know this bad news by now. I did not tell many people, coz the more i said the more sorrowful i feel. Never thought i got to go through these again, ever since my dad passed away in 2003.

My bro in law david was missing for so many days. We were shocked to found him dead inside his flat on the 2nd of feb at 8.30pm. The whole story was too long and too sad for me to note down here. I cannot take it whenever i thought of the moment. Though me and zhenyu are not close to david, but neither are we in bad terms. Just normal... due to the different characters we have, the different thinking, zhenyu and zhenxiang are not very close.

I got to stay strong for zhenyu, he really need my support now. My inlaws, esp my father in law, cannot take it. Some more he just had his operation. There is nothing much we can do about david's death now. Got to get over soon... i can't even work today.. Went to the bank, work halfway, breakdown crying. Took halfday off and came home.

Now that david passed all his burden to us, and choosen the selfish way, i'm feeling very stressful now. Hate him alot, and at the same time i miss him so much. I always like to nag at him, and now, there is no more chance for me to do so. Just pray that God will forgive him, and hope he knew tat both me and zhenyu had forgiven him.

Goodbye ah heng.