That's it. No more pain for ah ma anymore.. She's in heaven now. When bad thing happened, it happened everything together. The night before when grandma was weak in her breathing... Zhenyu and i quickly dashed down to NUH. Unfortunately, mum suffered from Appendicitis:(
My stubborn mother can bear this painful killer for one whole night! When the moment she's ready for operation, my eldest Uncle called her and said grandma had passed away:( She rejected the op, and asked to remove all needles and the nurse put her in the wheelchair and brought her over to my grandma's ward. We were there with sister and siyong... followed by the uncles and my aunt. Then... at last saw the eldest grandson.
I like to complain, grumble, nag, but at the end, I'll still do what i can do or what i should do. Hubby on the other hand, not as calculative as me. He don't mind to do more... He said just treat it as the last thing to do for ah ma. When ah ma is around, i did my part, that's why i never felt any guilt. Anyway, i just find it a joke, if you value DUA SOON (ELDEST GRANDSON) so much, please ask him to do the important things. I am not DUA and i am not 'SON', i am only responsible on minor things like: when ah ma needs to go hospital, need to go for check up, need to buy milk and diaper, need to go to the bank to take interest, need new bed matress, need wheel chair, need daily food, need CNY goodies, need a maid to take care for her. These type of things i am responsible:) Because i am too free, i am not working, i got a car, i got spare time, i got alot of money, i got the energy. Yes i am calculative because in this situation whereby bias is too much and i felt disgusted. So, all i can do is to nag and grumble. I'm not blaming anyone, i just felt 'imbalance' that's all.
Hubby was very supportive.. Sometimes i just felt so proud of him. I am thankful and grateful for everything he did. These few days hard on him...
Ah ma is gone, left the maid for me to settle... Will book a ticket for her to go home... After that, don't come and bother me about any issues. I only care about my mummy and her recovery. In another words, don't come and bother my mummy too. She needs ample rest and comfort.
Goodbye ah ma, you shall always live in my heart.
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